During chapel’s praise and worship, I became full of emotions. Sad as I thought about the wonderful past full, four years, and there I was, standing on the first day of my last year. Overwhelmed with the Father’s faithfulness, how much He has been with me and continues to. Excited and ready to have reached my unexpected 5th and final year. After today on it only gets closer to the finish line. What a journey it has been. From personal growth, finding passions to establishing meaningful friendships, a lot of life has happened.
Once in a while, I feel a sense of emptiness. That crept over me, too. I think it came from the struggle of seeing unfamiliar faces around campus, wanting to be able to recognize people, but I simply could not. Then loneliness came. The downside of being a super-senior hit me. But back to that void that cannot be filled. It is a sign of something deeper. In my life, I cannot find joy and satisfaction that sustains in people, nor in the things I like. If only it were that simple. I am not alone. You are with me. I need You. You have me.
When my parents were in their early twenties, they were in the process of becoming immigrants to leave a war torn country. Here I am in my early twenties, a university student in a country where we take everything we have for granted. Growing up and living in two completely different environments is a barrier that makes us not be able to fully understand one another. Growing up and living in two completely different environments has brought us closer together.
Westernization, you have been on my mind quite frequently. Will you influence every individual in the world to become like you? Will you touch people to make them lose their traditions, language and customs? When will you stop? You have caused identity crises, generational misunderstanding, unnecessary wants.
A journal post on love:
What does love make a person do? Does love change someone for the worse or better them? Does love control a person or does a person control love?
This love that I am referring to is between man and woman. I know my Everlasting Love, forever constant, never failing. But this human love, what are you like?
I’ve seen love make people go crazy. They endure abuse—emotional to physical. They chase after their love. They only want to be with their significant other. No one else in the world matters. They make up excuses to be with their love. Sometimes love turns people crazy after who they love they forget about others in their life..friends and family.
Is a person’s amount of love solely for one individual only? Cause I can’t imagine pushing myself away from cherished family and friends. I’ve watched and been pushed away. Or maybe falling in love will make me become like everyone else who has been and is in love. That makes me not want to be in a relationship. When I am, will I be the same or change? I like the me that I am. What does love do? What can love do?
It is heartbreaking when people fall out of love. True love. People always talk about that. Disney’s taught society well. When it is definite “true love,” is that when people will not fall out of love?
Love, you are powerful.